Sunday, December 27, 2009

Update to main site

I just redid the main Heresy Studios site (it was long overdue)..and it came out quite well. One of the nice things is: a lot of it is using google. If you are reading this from (heresystudios.com), if you click on blog...Joomla is pulling that from blogger. The video menu option? that is a componant pulling from youtube (may change it but want to see how well it works over all). The still gallery? Picasa.
 
If you are going "Why?"
 
My answer is managability. On my side of the equation, these three things are just minute entries into the database...and not something I have to make sure I get the link right or help me lilith. I simply use Picasa to load the pictures onto the web gallery, and it will populate on the site. Same with the blog and same with youtube (although it is loading that into a playlist).
 
Just seems easier on this end.:)

Just cause I felt like it..

Made this today with idea of her protraying a czech..and tried to get the national flag working with the lights.:)
Friday, December 25, 2009

A nice Cinema4D shader

One of the things I was worried about for this scene is how to depict the jail cell, and still have Jason see the action from behind. One way I COULD do it is to animate the scene, and put the animated scene onto one of the monitors. Well... unfortunately, I am lazy.:) I would much do it on the same scene. As I was browsing the internet for enDOFin (which I will purchase in the immediate future), I ran into this nice little shader. Essentially, it takes the output from any camera and puts it on the material. In this little jail picture, you are seeing one camera looking into the monitors with two seperate cameras being linked into the monitors as it renders. Pretty cool.:)
 
Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Testing a bathroom

Here is a clip I did recently.:)
Monday, December 21, 2009

Testing hair / using features to make certain changes

As I progress to making Signs of God, one thing I always wanted to do with Kayla..is try to make her resemble her mother a little. A goof from lack of earlier research, her mother does indeed have black hair. Which isn;t a bad thing >:) However, Kayla is known for being a redhead..but thought it would be cool if I added some hints of black hair. To do that with current hair requires modifying the hair pack...and if I am not sure, that can be disasterious.:) So I used a feature in Cinema4d called Fusion to spread a gradiant of the color black throughout the hair and this is the result.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Hmm...

It has been an interesting year. This was the year I FINALLY finished my first animated movie, but it was also the year I spent the most time unemployed. Despite the fact I got unemployment because I was laid off, it was still a little tough. You know it is amusing when you make too much money for state funded health insurance on Unemployment that only paying you 235 dollars a week.
 
I did eventually get a job doing what I do best: Tech support. It has proven interesting so far, and my only set back was severe case of cold/bronchitis/asthma issues.
 
On the other hand, I did work on these pics to keep my mood up there. It's been awhile since I have done pics with no real background (most of them are using volumtric lights.In the long run, I am proud of them cause they are better then I have previously rendered. I am hoping good for the new year..and possibly a finished movie.:)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Rite of Passage Trailer

It's finally coming!!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

A post I did for school

Also to add on to the comments about the Theory of Freud. The reason I feel he is criticized is because a lot of it feels like it is centered around the boys to their mothers, but when the idea of girls to their father was suggested he didn't accept. I do like the concepts of the personality theory and I agree with defense mechanism in the general theory. However, the psychosexual portion tends to distort and makes it in my opinion a little confusing.

Sexual development is a part of psychological development, and the obvious need to explore that for overall mental health is rather obvious with the growth in Sex Therapist. However, my personal view of how Freud treated sexual development was far too generalized and far too mixed into the overall personality theory that it it is confusing and hard to figure out where and what.

What the Neo-Freudians did was take that theory, and break it down with further study. I don't think the desire towards the mother is sexual, but rather as Maslow's describe as a need for security. I think the reason is that he examined the base human as an animal, and an animal mother in nature protects her infants from harm. By instinct, the child knows this and goes to them for protection and nurturing. Now I do believe that men who do not progress from the nurturing state will have problems, but not for the sexual desires that I felt Freud was leading to.

So in essence, I am not saying Freud was a complete idiot and didn't know what he was talking about. However, I believe if I remember right that he did case study based on other examinations not conducted himself and examination done on rich women. By today's standards, his work would of been found unreliable due to the limits of his finding. While I respect the fact he brought forth a whole new idea of psychology, I feel his views were far too limited versus the others psychologist that came after him with other ideas that form a much broader spectrum of how we tick. With this in mind, the fact that he mashed together sexual development with the overall personality would give people cause to question.

I have read my fellow classmates responses both positive and negative towards Freudian. In certain lights, he does make sense. However if he gives you certain triggers to look for, it is very possible you will find them in children and adults because they do exist. However, they do not fully explain the total psychological traits of humans. To be fair, I think all psychologist mentioned in the book have a full grasp of the personality in a person. I think this is the reason why personality disorders can be hard to diagnose and treat because we don't fully understand the complexity of the mind.

In my personal view, I do have respect for psychologist, and I don't think there is a right or wrong answer for any of the theories. Freud does explain certain aspects of a personality, so he is right. However, he may be wrong about other aspects. This is precisely why it is called a theory.

Let's take physics for example. The Theory of Relativity is something we can slightly prove. Without Star Trek type technology, we cannot prove exactly what Eistein predicted, but we know it is possible. Then how does that differ with the Law of Gravity? Although the math is complex, what goes up indeed does come down when Gravity is involved. The same thing can be said about the personality theories.

There is evidence that we seek security, but there is also evidence of the Oedipus complex. I once met a kid who literally said they were going to marry their mom. While assisting a cub scout summer camp (I was over 18 and an Eagle Scout), this particular kid slept in the same tent with his mom rather then sleep in a tent with another kid. By Scout policy, he couldn't sleep in the same tent with me. If you followed the news of the 90's, you can probably deduce why. Other cub scouts were sharing their tents with other boys their age, but he insisted if he could not sleep in the same tent as me, he will sleep in the same tent as his mom.

Now that may not be evidence itself, but the constant closeness and the statement of marrying his mom itself is a general indication. Now when I was a Weblos about to head into Boy Scout, I did sleep in the same tent as my father due to trust issues. However when I got into Boy Scouts, my father and godfather would sleep in a command tent, and I would sleep with my patrol. While I do have a closeness with my mom, I am my own individual with other psychiatric issues that is slowly being addressed.

However when I look at my issues, I can state I am in the Genital stage and beyond, but yet I still have some issues that need to be resolve. The Neo-Freudians and other Psychological Theorist went beyond those stages, and developed what can cause a person to have issues.

In the end, Freud's theory was limited. However, Neo-Freudian and others expanded the ideas into a more solid foundation then what existed before Freud.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

on the mind

Somedays, the fan base seem small, but that all you really need. Popularity is sometimes something to aim for, but somedays you just have to..you know...be happy you achieve something then nothing.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Elite attitude

One thing I experience here and there in the community is the amount of elitism. Basically, it is this thing where some artists thinks they can't stink, and that we need to learn from them. The biggest problem? When they come off as rude.

So maybe you have been modelling, texturing, or whatever since the dawn of time, but does that give you the privilege to forget manners? My answer is no.